Holding hands with an angel

Dear P
      How are you? How are things? I know we haven't spoken in a while, mostly because you never answer anymore. I guess time isn't on our side, and you were right, college isn't has bad as I thought, I  just have to learn how to  manage my time a little better, but so far I seem to be hanging on. I'm writing you today to let you know that I miss you so much, as well as to thank you for everything you have done for me. Thank you for not only being a great cousin but an amazing mentor.Thank you for running to my rescue whenever I was in trouble. Thanks for taking the time out to really get to know me not as another family member but, for the person I truly am. On multiple you occasion,you have prove to me that you can play varies roles from a cousin, to mother, to a sister, to a best friend and to a mentor. Thank you for picking me up whenever I was down, took care of me whenever I was sick, made me laugh whenever I was sad, and most importantly, thank you for being you, and being one of the person I truly count on in this world.
     
     I remember meeting you for the first time when I was eight-years old, and though about why we look so alike, but when my mother introduce you as my cousin everything just made more sense. Ever since then you were more than just any other cousin, you become a teacher. You have taught and showed me that I could do anything if I was put my mind to it. You help my mother when she was down, pick me up and dress me every school year. You made me deals with some things I didn't want to, and for that I thank you, because I am now a less angrier person. You made me realize that in order to forgive someone, you have to forgive yourself . You taught that, 'giving back is one of life greatest gift', and you don't have to be loaded to give, because 'giving when you don't have a lot to give is a great sacrifice'. You have play a role in molding me into the person that I am today, you've have truly made me better.

  Even though you have been here since birth, you still still miss a lot. It wasn't until my junior year in high school that we reconnect. It seems like you knew exactly when to come around, because everything was fall apart. Now, sitting here as I recall being this angry 16 year old girl, who was of fighting life and its trick, and you being this angel, holding my hand through my darkness days. I was so angry back then and, it felt like that anger was never going to go away because of the pain  that left but you help me. You made talk about it, and advise me about letting go the pain because " it takes the light away from you". I use to think that talking about things didn't really help, but through time I notice that i had became less angry and hurt.  Now, two years later, i'm less angry, less hurt, and stronger than I was before. Thank you for all that you have done, and I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Sincerely,
Loune

Holding hands with angels

(This poem is dedicated to the person I love most- J)

You ever held hand with an angel

because I never knew I could be able

to be the person that I've become 

I though it was all just a fable 

sitting across this table

looking at you,my Angel.

Yes! you! You gave me life!

You save me when no one else could

You took the knife

away from my enemy

my God you are the perfect remedy

right there you became my clarity 

you really know how much you mean to me.

Now in this reality 

surrounded by all this tragedies

you seems to be the only melody

that stills gives me energy

I still hold all of our memories

they will be my greatness Legacy.